Suddenly - serious rambling - sorry. :)

Have you ever just gone along in life, and all of a sudden, something just really hits you? Like, maybe you're driving to work, and you suddenly realize that you are behind the same car every day of the week, but never paid attention. Or, suddenly one day, your age really hits you - like how did I get to be over 30?! This is how I'm feeling today...how did my wedding day suddenly get to be only three days away?!?! Three days. Not much time in the big picture of life. But, suddenly, these three days are full of "what should I get done today" questions. I have this really great list of things I need to do each day, and have been crossing them off since last week. Last night, I went to Sam's club to get the ribs for the rehearsal dinner, and now I can't find my list. I know it sounds dumb...but I feel lost without my list! Do I know what to do today? Yes...for the most part. I just hope I don't forget something. That's my biggest heart attack factor today - what if I forget something?!?!?!?

Carol and Heidi are hitting the road today (and, of course, Jay). They are taking time from work, their families, and just their own lives, for Brian and me. It's such an overwhelming thought, and it makes my heart pound. Actually, as soon as I wake up in the morning, my heart starts to thud, and my brain starts to just buzz with "what to do". It's maddening. :) I am looking forward to the rest of this week so much - have for a very long time. But, I also can't wait for it to be over and done with. So much has gone into preparing for these few days...time, money, laughter, tears. OMG - I swear I tear up at the dumbest things right now! Of course, this is just a natural occurrence for me - I'm just like my mother.

Ok, all I'm doing is rambling. Can you see how horribly bad my mind is today? I better just cut this off, and get back to work.

I do say a prayer today for all those traveling to Minnesota for this wonderful wedding. I pray for Terry and Maggie on the road up somewhere in Cananda - I hope they hit the lower 48 soon! I pray for those who are having a hard day, a good day, a big day, a small day. God, give me serenity, courage, and wisdom. Thank you God, for blessing me in so many ways.

Love to you all