I....am....job?

No, not quite. **sigh** Let's see...I've been a temporary employee of the big L for three months now. In this time, they have been "working" on getting me a permanent place on my old team. Before I rant and rave, I will admit that I am so very thankful to have work and a paycheck. I have friends and family who are not so fortunate right now, and my heart goes out to them. The market is tough everywhere.

I sincerely took for granted that a snap of the fingers would open the door back up at the big L. I mean, when I chose to leave to pursue the position in Sartell, I was told by various people that I had a spot if I ever needed to come back. So, when I choose to come back...where are those people? Well...not with the big L anymore. They have all moved on to other positions as well. So, the new honchos in place know nothing of what kind of an asset I am, therefore are not so anxious at having me back.

I have spent the last three months proving why this company needs me - and have even been involved in what they call SWAT teams (escalation team for major issues). Me...the contrator. :) Feels good...but makes me wonder why the foot dragging continues. I have two colleagues here who are really going to bat for me, and if it weren't for them, I'm sure I wouldn't be here even in the capacity that I am. But, if they really valued my expertise as they say they do...wouldn't they want to make sure to get me in and not let me go again? They know my resume is out there and that I am actively looking. Yet, I continually get the "we're in a holding pattern". I want to say "the runway is clear...land the damn plane!!" But, I don't. My two favorite colleagues keep telling me that the wheels are in motion, and that something will happen soon. Of course...they have said this for nearly a month now...bless their hearts. Plus, there's more to the story than I feel I can put in here at this time because it involves other people. So, that'll have to be another post.

So, fingers stay crossed (which makes it hard to type my blog), and I just keep showing them day in and day out how much @ss I kick. If you have extra things to cross in my favor, please do so.

Thank you also to my hubby for the support and encouragement he gives me. He experiences my frustration often, and doesn't bark back. I'm a lucky girl.

love and peace
denise